Monday, September 13, 2010


Went to the Dr. this morning, she said my levels are on the low end of "normal" and even though I feel like I've been really hyper compared to how I felt with more meds, she is convinced I'm fine. Is it normal for Endocrinologists to be so hard headed? 
I don't feel as good as I KNOW I could...Don't I have a say in how I should be treated? 
I've lost 5lbs. since my last visit 4 weeks ago. I know this doesn't sound like much, but it is to me. I have been tracking how I feel on each dosage of meds. I have to live with this everyday! I know what's not right, and I feel like my dr. doesn't care because a piece of paper says my levels are "Within the Normal range"! 
So now, I have to stay on the current dosage for six more weeks. =[ I really really hope things start looking up.

Beyond my aggravation of the above, I now feel as though I want to curl up into a ball and just disappear.  Paranoia has reared it's ugly head, making me feel as though everyone is out to make my life a living hell. I know this is not logical, but it is what's going on in my head. I can't relax, I can't let my shoulders fall to their natural position. Nope, they are up close to my ears every min. of every day. 

I go to the eye Dr. tomorrow for the first time since being diagnosed. I'm nervous, but excited that I will have a better grasp on why my eyes ache and other symptoms that have annoyed me over the past few months. Hopefully the redness on the outsides of my iris will be explained.

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